......I just smacked my daughter, Roxy, clear across the head because I was so pissed at her. I feel so awful you have no idea. Tough couple of days with the kids crying, not listening, acting wild and completely wearing me down. Bed time is always the worst and of course Roxy was not listening and just ignoring me while I'm asking her to get to bed. I totally blind sided her when I whacked her across the head with my head. Oh boy, did she jump up, cry and fly into bed. She finally listened and she is now quiet but I'm not too happy about what I did. Then I start thinking about how I treat my kids, punish them, talk to them and everything else. Will they grow up to be great kids? Because I've slapped them here and there will they hate me when they grow up? Am I parenting them correctly so that I have well behaved, respectful and loving children? Then I had an episode with Trinity this morning. She hurt her hand in school on Monday and she is in tears 10 minutes before the bus comes. There was no mention at all after school yesterday, at night or even first thing this morning. She now tells me this when we need to get our shit together and leave! Sorry child but I need to give you tough love and you just need to suck it up. She was crying so bad, making me feel like shit because "I don't listen to her" and I had to send her down to the bus in tears. Oh my word! I need SuperNanny!
WOD - Deadlifts 20X (1/2 body weight = 95lbs), 1000m row followed by 20K (12.4 mile) bike. Today was class day so I did the deadlifts and row before class, then we just kicked off class with the 20K ride followed by weights afterwards. I did sweat really hard on the bike....I was thinking of you Grigs! Had a scare with one member in class today. She was new and she felt very dizzy so I had to lie her down and make sure she did not pass out on me. Very scary thing to have happen in class. That is an instructors biggest fear; have somebody pass out in class.
With all the pouring rain I just came right home. I did nothing today other then a load of laundry, bake a berry bunt cake, computer work and feed bunnies. Yes, I ate some batter but it's not the kind of batter that you can just keep eating. Now if I were backing chocolate chip cookies that would be another thing.
Food - Not doing very well. Still drinking my shakes, having salads, turkey sandwiches with hummus/carrots and yogurt but I find myself snacking on things that I shouldn't. Found the 4 boxes of Girl Scout cookies that my husband hid on me. That is one bad thing, secondly with this rainy weather I just want to bake and let the yummy aroma smell up the house. And when I'm really tired and beat up, I look for comfort in my food (aka bad food).
Ass - Doing okay today. Very achy in the mornings but as I move around it goes away a bit. It's still there but I forget about it. Did call my chiropractor and asked him if it's best that I go back to him or get the shot in June. I no longer have the piriformis syndrome but a slipped disc in my back that is hitting my nerve. Hopefully DOC can help me out.
Less then 3 weeks for my big day. Holy shit! I need to get everything situated because the race will be here before you know it. Still training but at this point I cannot see gaining anymore strength. I think I'm at my peak and I just need to maintain.
TV time so I need to hurry up so I can head upstairs and read too.
time to book our flights to Florida..and probably have a couple of beers as we do that. Mommy, you're MEAN!...Been there and still doing it...teenagers are just as fun. lol
ReplyDeleteStay focused Bendz. and you are right, you are at your peak and mighty strong! GO BENDZ GO!