Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Full and FAT!

Just chowed down a bowl of spaghetti with meatball, sausage and pepperoni.  I'm beyond stuffed.  I guess it didn't help that I ate 1/2 of this enormous brownie before supper (thank you Magaly, Miriam and Nelson!)

Another busy day in the Cardillo house but a good day.  I don't say that too often either!  This is what my day looked like:

5:15 a.m. - alarm went off
5:45 a.m. - taught spin class
7:05 a.m. - back home
7:30 a.m. - ripping sheets off kids beds and changing them
8:00 a.m. - sending Trinity and Lincoln off to school
8:30 a.m. - pulling out window screens and scrubbing them on back deck.
8:45 a.m. - cleaning those windows along with deck door and side door with newspaper and vinegar (this shit really does work)
9 a.m. - load of laundry in wash (meanwhile Roxy is lounging around in her bathing suit watching TV!)
9:30 a.m. - switch clothes to dryer
9:45 a.m. - screens back into windows
9:50 a.m. - sit with Roxy and ready to fall asleep
10:15 a.m. - in car, bag packed and off to gym for massage
10:30 a.m. - 1/2 hour massage on quads (yummy!)
11:00 a.m. - get Roxy from daycare and take her swimming
12:15 p.m. - out of pool after we had the place to ourselves
12:30 p.m. - showered and heading home
1:00 p.m. - eating our picnic lunch on living room floor watching Barney
1:30 p.m. - nap time for Roxy
1:45 p.m. - checking e-mail, making salad and baking chocolate chip cookies (for neighbor), folding laundry and making lunches for tomorrow
2:45 p.m. - get Lincoln off bus
3:30 p.m. - get Trinity off bus and head to Old Navy and Kohl's.....she needed some summer skirts/dresses plus we had to buy a birthday present for my neighbors grandson.
4:45 p.m. - home
5:00 p.m. - leftover pasta sauce on stove warming up, putting together b-day present and new baby present in their bags, packing kids bags for tomorrow after school (swim party at neighbors house)
5:15 p.m. - leaving to teach another class
5:45 p.m. - class #2 begins
7:25 p.m. - I'm home eating my pasta
7:45 p.m. - watering flowers outside, putting away kids outdoor toys/indoor toys and kissing the kids goodnight.
8:26 p.m. - here I am!  PHEW!

So WOD was nothing off the white sheet/workout plan.  Taught two spin classes so that was enough for today.  I may wake up early and run 6 miles before work tomorrow but the thought of getting up early again just totally sucks.  However, the birds are chirping so early that I'm up anyways.

I'm sore today and I'm not sure if it's from class, my massage yesterday or finally sore from Sunday.  All in my hamstrings.  They are cranky!  I need to really lay down and do some good stretching but I'd rather lay down and sleep.

Time to shower and shave!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

IT'S ALL MENTAL!

Grigs and I at mile marker 9 on the
run which takes you right by the
finish line..what a tease!
So I have been thinking!  Not really a smart thing to do but I have been thinking a lot these past two days about my race.  I should know all this by now but Sunday really proved it to me.  Here it goes!  You can train really hard for 5 months to get the muscle built and ready to race hard but when it comes down to it, it is the mind that carries you through.


My munchkins waiting for us on the
run course!

Your mind is the most amazing thing.  It can psych you up, it can psych you out, it can play silly games with you, it can make you strong, it can make you weak, it can easily make you give up and it can really push you to NEVER GIVE UP!  All of this went through my mind in 7 hours and 14 minutes on Sunday.  I know now that I need to continue my strength training but also keep my mind focused and ready for my second race on July 10th.  I have one more Half Ironman and this time I will be racing alone.  My husband or Grigs will not be there to talk to me, push me, keep me entertained, keep me well fed, keep me happy or yell at me.  I will be lost in my mind and my thoughts for this entire race and that will be really hard for me.  Maybe I need to find a friend on the course.  Any takers?

Grigs and I dragging Roxy and
Trinity across the finish line!
I have not gotten back to my "white sheet" just yet.  I took Monday off and today I taught class for 90 minutes.  We rode the bike pretty hard and lifted weights working on the entire body.  I do have to say though my body felt pretty good.  Even my "jay jay" did good sitting on the bike seat.  I guess after having three kids my jay jay can survive anything.  Hey Sue.....VAGINA!

Eating every bit of sugar in my house the past two days.  I'm tired, cranky, angry at my kids/husband, hot and very annoyed at the world.  I think I'm finally coming down from my 70.3 mile high and now crashing hard.  It is a very busy week for the Cardillo Clan so I just need to get through this week and pray that I can get focused real soon and get back on track.


Our buddy Rouskie came out to cheer
us on!  Thank you Rouski!
 Ass - I feel nothing....did not hurt one bit on Sunday and two days later I still don't feel anything.  It is probably still there but right now it is not annoying me (everything else is instead).  Canceled my cortisone shot which was supposed to be today.  So lets see what lies ahead for now.














Monday, June 6, 2011

I did what????????

Yesterday seems so long ago because it is Monday and I'm back into the swing of the million and one things that need to get done.  Who cares if I just dragged my ass 70.3 miles around Litchfield County. 

My body feels like a million dollars.  My ass, as sexy and wide that it is, has no pain!  My feet are only sore from the pounding on the run (I would be cranky too if I was being hammered by a 192 pound woman for 13 miles).  No chaffing or blisters.  Not bad at all.

So what did today bring?  A shit load of kids.  I volunteered to work at Field Day at T's school for the entire day.  Oh my word!  Screaming kids from 9 a.m. - 2:30 p.m.  What a joy!  I was in charge of one of the field games where there was nothing but water being squirted around.  The younger kids during the morning shift were really cute and fun to work with.  The afternoon kids (grades 3 - 5) were a bunch of psycho's.  By that point everybody seemed tired and cranky so they all just went to town spraying the shit out of each other with water guns.  I had my share of shots in the face as well but thank goodness it was a warm day.

After school today I was asked to watch my neighbors kids until about 5 p.m.  So I picked the three girls up after Field Day, got Lincoln at the bus stop (Roxy was in daycare today) and drove them to Friendly's where I ordered the 12 scoop sundae.  Can I just tell you that I barely had any of it.  Those kids devoured the whole damn thing in a blink of an eye.  I didn't get any satisfaction of smothering my face in hot fudge or mint chocolate chip ice cream.  They stole it all!  Back home to plug in the sprinkler and get stuff done around the house because I was gone all day long.

I made the kids a nice "Peach Glazed Chicken" dish for supper.  They all hated it and being as tired and cranky that I was (still am) that just pissed me right off.  Ungrateful shits for not liking a cool meal that I slaved over.  Todd was gone too for class (every Mon, Tue and Thur night 6 - 9) so everything is all on me.  FUCK!

I really need to jump into the shower and scrub off all the grime from today.  I want to chill and read a bit but so far Roxy has called me upstairs twice and taken me away from things that I need to do.  So now I'm going to sign off, climb back up the stairs, she what the hell she wants AGAIN, take a shower and jump into bed and read.  It's only 8:30 p.m. but I really want and need the rest.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

I don't ever want to see another GU in my life or I'll vomit.

For 4 hours I was eating GU's (3 per hour).  I'm so done with that shit.

Well, Half Ironman #1 is DONE!  FINISHED!  OVER!  GONZO!  In a nutshell I have mixed emotions about my race.

A.  Swim sucked....added 3 minutes to last years time (46:00)
B.  Came out of swim very fatigued, nauseous and mentally beaten down.
C.  Bike started off shitty.  No leg power, fatigue, angry and still mentally beaten down.
D.  Grigs found me after mile 10 on the bike and I vented to her about how my legs were not working.  Quite funny now actually.

But by the time we continued on our ride I had calmed down, legs came back to life but I was still sucking pond water on the climbs....75% of the ride was uphill.  Riders were blowing past my ass and I just thought, "This big ass woman is getting her ass kicked!  I need to lose weight so I can get up these hills easier.  What the fuck are they doing to climb up so damn fast?"  I just could not wrap my mind around how fast these people were pedaling.  I just couldn't go any faster.

Vagina became very numb by mile 25, peed on the bike once (that is always fun), Grigs kept drafting off my ass (I just think she liked the view....wink wink Grigs!), had quite a few laughs and we quickly became the fun team or funny team....something like that.  Peed on the bike again, kept complaining about our vagina's, was being harassed because we weren't racing hard enough (some Biker Edge dude who was not racing mind you!)  Ate our GU's every 20 minutes, drank tons of water/gatorade and threw back a few salt tablets.  Pushing it hard to get back to transition and reality hit.  "Oh shit that's right!  We're racing and we need to run 13.1 miles".  Bike time was 4 minutes slower then last year 3:58.  Looks like I'm not going to beat my time from last year at this point.

Got off the bikes, peed in transition (Grigs pissed sitting down putting on her sneakers....I just stood there and peed) and headed out for our 13.1 mile run.  FUCK!  (Sorry for the bad language but I was really saying it!)

The most amazing thing to me?  My legs felt nothing from transitioning from bike to run.  No "tree trunk feeling, cramps or fatigue".  I was impressed.  The run was hard, hot, hilly but loads of fun with Grigs.  We enjoyed our walks up the hills and at the water stations.  Drinking more water, gatorade and soda while eating bananas and pretzels.  We made a scene at each water station by cracking jokes, teasing the volunteers, burping, farting and just trying to entertain everybody around us.  We just assumed that they are hurting just as bad as we are.  By mile 9 (a tease since it's right by the finish line) I saw my husband and kids.  They had a sign and were cheering for Grigs and I.  I wanted to bad to stop and hug them but I was afraid that I could not start back up again.  I would just want to sit there and hug, squeeze and kiss them to pieces.  But I had 4.1 miles left to run....FUCK!  Mile 11 was my "are we fucking done yet" feeling.  We only had 2 miles left but my gas tank was empty and I was starting to fade.  GOD BLESS GRIGS!  She kept talking to me and entertaining me while I was quiet while focusing mentally on left foot, right food, left foot, right foot.  This is where the mind starts playing games.  FUCK!

We hear the music, smell the burgers (I'm now really hungry at this point), hear the crowds cheering and we both look at each other with wide eyes.  WE'RE FUCKING DONE!  WE DID IT!  Grigs and I hi-fived each other before running down the shoot.  Trinity and Roxy ran with Sue and I and we crossed together.  I'll need to order that shot from the photographer.  I was so happy to be done and so happy that Grigs and I were able to do it together. 

Grigs, you were my rock out there today.  You never tried to push me (you knew better), you came along for the company instead of racing for time and you kept things positive while you knew my mind was getting negative.  You are the best and I am so thankful to have you in my life.  Now go enjoy the Oreo Cakesters!

Run time 2:24 which was 9 minutes faster then last year.  So when you add this all up together I came in 7:14 which is one minute faster then last year.  I guess you can say that I did beat my time.......ha ha ha ha!

I now continue to train for Half IM #2 on July 10th.  Oh boy!

Time for bed....I really need a good night sleep.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

I should be in bed getting my beauty sleep.....

.......but I'm still wrapping things up and now I need to shower.  There goes an early bed time!  Damn!

Real quick..............HOLY SHIT I'M RACING TOMORROW!  That about sums up how I feel.  Bags are packed with:

wetsuit
body glide
vaseline (don't ask)
race belt
sneakers
bike shoes
helmet
5 million GU's
visor
tampon (I know...it sucks)
sunglasses
towel
goggles
swim cap (a print light pink)
socks
and a huge bottle of ..........................KICK ASS!

Dropped off bike today with Sue and her daughter Katie.  They came back to the house to a homemade bowl of pasta and meatballs.  God bless my husband for making it for us.

What is my goal tomorrow? 
A.  Finish
B.  Have a shit load of fun racing with Grigs.
C.  Maybe beat my time from last year (swim 43:07...bike 3:54....run 2:33)

After a crazy day planting flowers, playing with kids, b-day party, race registration, supper, bedtime and packing.....I've flipping had it.  I'm ready to race!  I want to get this one over with for god knows why but all these months of training and now it's time.  Just think of all the damn squats, pushups and those fucking burpees that I had to do to get here.  Time to swim 1.2 miles, bike 56 miles and run 13.1 miles.  Body don't fail me know.

Miriam, your probably reading this right when I'm taking my 3rd poop run to the potty and getting ready to race.  Send out a HUGE prayer for me.

Talk to you all tomorrow!  Giddy up!

Friday, June 3, 2011

I have such a pit in my stomach....

.....if I stop thinking about my race I am okay but when I do dwell on it I get so damn nervous. 

Right now I don't feel like I'm ready.  I'm achy from my period and I feel beyond bloated and disgusting.  It probably doesn't help that I ate some chocolate this afternoon and an oreo cakester.  They are so flipping good!  I'm just letting the "Niagara" flow and hopefully by Sunday morning I will feel strong and ready.  Oh body don't fail me now.

My last WOD was today - 20 minutes of each; swim, bike and run at an easy pace.  The bike was fine and my heart rate was barely above 125.  I had it at level 10 doing a random course.  Jumped on the treadmill and put it at 6.5 mph (9:15) pace.  At first my body was like "what the hell are you doing to me!" but then it warmed up a bit and calmed down.  I felt my calves, they seemed to be tight.  And my left side was not 100%.  Probably because my ass issue is still around but not like it was before.  Lastly I jumped into the pool to swim for 20 minutes and I plugged in 1000 yards.  My pace was slow and comfy while I was trying to focus on my stroke.  I'm just so thankful that I have a wetsuit for Sunday.  I need all the help that I can get to keep my ass up.

Work has been completely nuts today which has been keeping my mind off the race but then reality hits and I just about shit my pants.  I've done this race before so I shouldn't be to concerned, I just want my body to feel good.  Right now I'm not getting the "feel good vibe" from it but today is today.  Sunday is another day!

I will make sure I blog tomorrow night.  I'll be down at the venue dropping off my bike tomorrow and getting marked and all that other fun stuff.  Then I'll sit down to a big bowl of pasta.

Oh boy, I think I need to go potty!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Oh Thank GOD.........

.....I got my period.  No, I'm not worried about being pregnant.  I was worried about getting it during my race on Sunday.  Now my "heavy" days will be happening earlier so I should be okay for Sunday.  PHEW!

Did you all miss me?

Had a great weekend with the family in VT but I'll make this all brief.....

Sunday - Drove up to VT in the a.m., stopped in a couple of stores and did not get up to the house until lunch time.  Ate lunch, mowed the lawn, played with water balloons, killed big ass mosquito's, drove to the Long Trail Brewery for dinner (nachos, veggie burger and beer), back home to TV, pj's and a bowl of ice cream.  WOD - Rest Day.

Monday - Woke up at a good hour, watched cartoons, breakfast (protein shake), packed the truck and headed to Plymouth State Park for a day of swimming with the kids.  I decided to run to the park so I kissed the kids and left while my husband drove down and waved out the window.  It was a 5.25 mile run that is not all that bad but very hot.  Plus I needed to hug a tree half way and stop on this major hill and walk for a bit but I did make it in 47:10.  Not a bad time for feeling lethargic and obese.  The rest of the day the kids swam, fished, played on the play scape, grilled HB's and HD's (so damn yummy), rented a paddle boat, swam some more, ate some more and we finally left at 5:30 p.m.  7 hours at the park is a great day!  Back home to baths, pj's, TV and ice cream.

Tuesday - I slept in today until 8:30 a.m.  WONDERFUL!  Packed up a small bag and headed to Killington Grand for a one night stay.  Checked into our room, dropped our stuff, put our suits and suntan lotion on and hit the pool.  It was another gorgeous day of sunshine and the pool was heated.  The kids were very warm and happy.  Jumped into the pool around 11 a.m. and did not leave until 5 p.m.  We were all sunburned no matter how much lotion we put on, packed a cooler and ate lunch by the pool, drank some beers and found a family to hang out with.  Actually it was us and them that occupied the pool.  The rest of the place was deserted.  So our three and their three kids played all day while we talked and relaxed.  Good day!~  WOD - Rest day again!

Wednesday - Back into the pool in the morning, showered, packed up, drove to VT house, packed everything up, cleaned the house, ate a quick lunch and left to head back to CT.  Left around 1 p.m. and drove straight through (just missed Springfield MA tornado's by an hour) to home.  Got home at 4 p.m., unpacked, put everything away, did a load of laundry, got dressed and the whole family got dressed and off to the gym we go.  Trinity and Todd both took class while the other two played in the daycare.  Got everybody home, fed, to bed and Todd and I were actually able to sit and watch TV.

Thursday - Here I am....WOD - Rest Day...Work today, ran out at lunch to run errands and buy all my food for my race on Sunday.  Needed to get the tampons for my "friend" as well.

It is now carb load, drink loads of water and slow down on the working out.  With all that and my period I feel like a fat piece of crap.  Oh my word!  Tapering is tough because I don't feel so healthy right now.  I just can't believe that race #1 is already here.  Oh my goodness, now I'm very nervous thinking about it.  Did not lose my 30 pounds but I did gain a ton of strength.  That should count for something.

Tomorrow is my last workout before game day on Sunday.  I'll let you know how that turns out :-)