I'm going to bitch, complain and vent to you right now. I know what your thinking and I know there is a lot of positive sides but right now I'm just being a bitch and letting it all out.
I weighed myself today. Damn f-in weight! I'm at 195lbs. How in the world is that????? What the !@#$
I get it, maybe I gained muscle. I'm so much muscle already that what the hell is going on. I would like to see my numbers on the damn scale fall. It did not happen in 30 days and I'm beyond pissed. This is how my morning started off. I even brought a bagel for breakfast because I was anticipating a very long bike ride today and some good weight loss. Ate my bagel and only rode for 50 minutes tops. Now I'm really f-in pissed. A. I did not lose any weight but gained and B. I did not get that long bike ride in that I had hoped for. I'm not mad at anybody just mad that my morning did not workout as planned.
So now I feel like a piece of crap. Here I am feeling really frustrated with very low self esteem and there are all these skinny shits riding all morning, really happy, beautiful and on top of the world. MFers. Again, I am not mad at anybody just frustrated. Nobody should feel that I'm pointing fingers. It's just how this 37 year old mother of three that weighs 195lbs feels. Skinny people just piss me off.
Running around all afternoon with b-day parties, drop off, pick ups and now I did not get my workout in. So I need to do something at home. Great! Knock me down even more when I'm already low. So here it is:
WOD - Biked 11 plus miles (nothing fancy or fast) then ran 400m, 15 burpees 4X's for time = 18:40. The sprints I had to do in my neighborhood and I looked really silly doing the burpees on the sidewalk. I got a lot of crazy looks. Tried to get my son to ride his bike while I chased him to make me go faster but he was too pooped and opted not to participate. I don't blame him. Sprinting outside is a completely different world then on the treadmill. It was HARD! I actually enjoyed the burpees instead.
Food - Did not follow any healthy eating plans today. Just ate and enjoyed the day. I will get back to my routine tomorrow because tomorrow is another day.
The positive side of things, had a great time with my gym family this morning raising money for an amazing cause, and I was able to spend time with good friends tonight at a hockey game in Springfield MA. It was a nice family night out and we had a great time. I love my family and my friends. You guys are just AWESOME!
You know what I really need to do? Weight myself the morning after my period where I feel the thinest. I guess that is when I will start weighting myself from now on. Damn body and damn scale.....YOU SUCK!
I'm done bitching.....good night!
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